Saturday, November 13, 2010

my Mr T

it been a mysterious fella
in Facebook

hurm hurm
actually who is d hell Mr T?

Mr T............
is an ordinary person in tis earth
who deserved to be loved
cared, n so on

who is Mr T 4 me?
d question which played in my frens mind ol d tyme

hurm hurm


i like to b silent in tis matter....
bcos its very sensitive matter in my life
bcos i loved love n still loving him......
it been years
i f these feeling 4 him
but i'm not dared enuf to express it him

guys again ...
dont mistake wit tis Mr T....
this Mr T is really a diff person from my 8years crush Mr TD....
they r nt d same person.....
-Chapter Closed-

cum bek to my new Mr T chapter
v r not together..
actually neva been together
tats d truth
i wished
i cud be wit him in future.....

its not love
its not about frenship
its not about crush
but its about sumthing diff from above
its a kinda of mixture feelings.......

which no 1 can define such feelings!!!!

oh my Mr T....
will remain as a Mystery Man in Facebook
as well to others....


will be my Mr T always....
as i will not express my love to u.....


it been more than 1 week
after deepavali of cos
hurm as usual nothing new

its tat my elder younger brother wasn't wit us on deepavalli
bcos he don f d Chopper to land in Kemaman
so he came ryte after deepavalli..
on 6th Nov at 12.30am...
well wat to do...
job cum 1st

one of my best buddie was wit me
Jess, she was wit us
all of 10days...
she learnt how to do murruku n other traditional foods
n she has her own new punjabbi suit as well

n cum bek to my sad story
mostly ...
not mostly actually ever year
every year i will have more than 6 dress
no matter jeans t-shirt or punjabbi or sareee
but tis year..
very sad..i only f 2 pairs of punjabbi...
oh noe...
i'm damn sad.....
not parents fault at all
bcoz they olry gav me RM 500 in voucher
n Rm 200 in cash...
yet i didnt spend d money 4 deepavalli stuff
but i spent olmost ol d money on practical dress.....
sop sop sop....
wat a sad story
i was so excited abt my practical until i totally forget abt my festival
wat an untiruteble gal i am....

hurm hurm hurm
oh yea...
toaly 4get abt d major part of deepavali...
wat else ....
mercun la....
tis year..4 d ever 1st tyme
my dad bought 2 8feet of fireworks...
v fired it..
semme majja....

hurm hurm....
during d preparation til now...
i gt my cough...
unstoppable cough
very irritating
wat to do....

i tink i took to much of ice witout my knowledge i guess
till now....

still coughing!!!!!

deepavalli went edy but don noe wen tis cough will leave me.......

buzy? i don tink so

it been months
i didnt update my lovely blog

i'm busy..
its not true...
i'm not busy
bcoz i can simply online in facebook n tagged ol d tyme
its just tat
i've no mood to update my blog
seems i don f any hot news

hurm hurm
actually again i lied
i do f news to share
but i tink tis is not d right place to share...
so let it be in me....

haiz haiz....
i'm at d end of my sem n my year in UPSI
i went through lots of obstacles
surviving in UPSI 4 past 3 n half years
really an unforgettable memories

i learned tat
bcoz human creates d rules
human f d rights to change those rules....

i will survive wit rules n witout rules......

Wednesday, August 18, 2010 comPlicateD

I close door,
and shut off my feelings,
Don't have the strength to care anymore,
my heart can't take this bleeding sky anymore.
You know i still love you,
But I'm disappointed in you!!


Sometimes I just sit ..with your lovely face in my head, and I gaze over the perfect imperfections that I never want to change. I know you don't know it yet, darlin', but you're my inspiration ..that flicker of light I keep trying to grasp ..but it's always taken away.

It comes back though, burnin' like the flames of hell. Strong and alive, shattering my world to pieces. The embers dance along my skin, and whisper little love notes in my ear.

Sometimes I wish you'd sing with me, but you'd rather scream instead. I guess I can handle that. I always did want to be heard. Let the rage contaminate the air. Let it fill every pore around, and strangle the innocence out of all the children. It's time to grow up and live in the real world now. It's time to stop thinkin' this fairytale of mine will ever come true.


I think.. I can live with that. I think I can be happy.. as long as I get to scream with you

i miss u friends !!!!

sHe sTOLe my heARt..

hey oru vaarththai mozhiyaalae
ennai uruga vaiththaaL
ennai uruga vaiththaaL
oru paarvai vazhiyaalae
ennai nerungi vittaaL
ennai nerungi vittaaL
oru minnal idipOlae
ennai thudikkavittaL
ennai thudikkavittaL
oru kaathal varathaalae
ennai aethethO seithuvittaL

she stole my heart
she stole my heart
she stole my heart
she stole my little little heart

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

If U're in a relationship, married or none, read this. U'll know why at the end.


When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.


So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

Sunday, August 15, 2010

oGos 2010

bulan ogos menjelma kembali.........
sebenarnya semua bulan akan jelma kembali setiap tahun

6th oGos 2010
aku berjumpa ngan seornag lagi kawan fesbuk di kgku...
Tharuma Prabu empunya namanya

7th ogos 2010..
tarikh keramat bagi kawan baik ku
telah berkonvo di Dewan Wawasan 2020, Perlis

7-9 Ogos 2010
perjumpaan kawan2 baikku
Thev, Batman ,n Ram bersama-sama ngan ku
dikediaman ku, Sg Petani

14th ogOs 2010
diri nie berjumpa dengan seorang lagi kawan
kawan yang ku kenali
sejak diri nie melangkah masuk ker UPSI
perjumpaan yang singat
ttp bermakna
SARAN ........

boleh dikatakan minggu yang sangat sibuk...

MinGGu ke 7
diri ini mempunyai 4 midterms

miNGGu ke 8
empunya blog nie
perlu submit 2 assig

jadual bulan oGOs ku berakhir disini
akan bersambung bagi
bulan septeMBer pula.......

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

LiFe hAs x mEaNinG wiThOuT fReNsHiP n LoVe

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.

Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, Far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.

Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone.

Love was when I loved you,
one true time to hold on to
In my life we'll always go on.

Near, far,
wherever you are,
I believe that the heart does go on.

Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay, forever this way
You are safe in my heart

and my heart will go on and on
dedicate tis song to my ol best buddies ever i f in tis world


selalunya kite dengar
thesis dibuat setelah proposal diluluskan?

dalam cos saya....
thesis dibuat tanpa proposal....

thesis bukannya sesuatu yag mudah untk dibuat...
ia memerlukan penyelidikan yang rapi dan sistematik
waktu yang diberikan untuk menyiapkan thesis dan proposal
adalah sehingga minggu ke13

entahla apa yang saya nak buat
sem ini merupakan sem yang sangat sukar bagi diri saya
walaupun jam credit saya hanya 12jam
tetapi beban yang bakal ku tanggung


Saturday, July 10, 2010

sem start dah.......

1 Julai 2007
1st day saya dibumi UPSI

ku berada di sem 7
sudah 3 1/2 tahun aku disini...
berpisah dengan keluarga
demi mendapat segulung ijazah

tak sabar
untuk menghabiskan saki baki
sem yang masih tertinggal

Friday, July 9, 2010

minGGu suAi keNal ambilan juLai 2010 /2011-protokol

i LOVE u all...........

sekali bersahabat selamanya bersahabat!!!!

aku sangat merindu saat itu
dengan mereka nie la
aku menimba ilmu
mendapat banyak peluang


sehingga kini kekal......

miss u ol my seniors......

Friday, July 2, 2010

minGGu suAi keNal ambilan juLai 2010 /2011

setiap kali bulan Julai dan Disember
UPSI mesti kecoh ngan ambilan baru...
begitu juga ngan kali nie....

berbengkel selama 2minggu di Kolej Zaba
start dr 20 Jun sehingga 30 Jun
then pindah ke Zon masing2 pada 1 Julai....

seramai lebih kurang 250 sekretariat dipilih
untuk melancarkan msk kali nie...
intake pun banyak....

12 unit sekretariat 12pp 24 tpp

sekretariatku seperti sebelum nie
harap vvip tak boring
tengok muka yg sama selalu

kekuataan Sekretariat Protokol
19 orang
9 di ZONE A
9 di ZONE B
1 incharge international students.....

hope v can perform well like b4....
wit new crew..
i hope i can do it ....


Wednesday, June 9, 2010


aku balik jugak ke halaman rumahku
sungai petani heaven .....

aku berada dibumi UPSI
walaupun sekarang adalah sembreak....

keje sebagai research assitant
dan juga penglibatan dalam aktiviti universiti
telah membataskan sembreak saya

cuti hanya 15hari ....
kini sedang menghitung hari
untuk pulang ke UPSI

Monday, May 3, 2010


dah genap sebulan
baru teringat nak update my blog...
bukan tak nak
tapi xde ruang masa yg sesuai
maklumlah minggu ke 12,13,14 n study week
week's yg genting
sebab kami dlm proses hantar assig...

cakap tentang study week plak...
penat berlebihan
hasil dr makan tido makan tido..
bukan study pun...

6 paper kesemuanya..
carry mark kurang memberangsangkan
cukup2 makan kata orang...

3paper berderet..
20,21,22 may.....
pas tue 24 27 n last 4th/may ....

penat rasanya nak study...
rasa macam dah banyak study..
maklumlah dok study selama 18 tahun

harap boleh score juga w/pun dalam keletihan macam nie....

Friday, April 2, 2010

love de song

Lyrics of Naan Pogiren from Naanayam


f: naan pogiren meley meley
boolagamey kaalin kezhey
vin meengalin kootam en meley

poo vaaliyin neerai poley
nee sindhinaai endhan meley
naan pookiren panner poo poley

thadumari ponen andrey
unnai paartha neram
adayalam illa ondrai
kanden nenjin oram
yen unnai paarthen endrey
ullam kelvi ketkum
aanalum nenjam andha nerathai

m: naan pogiren meley meley
boolagamey kaalin kezhey
vin meengalin kootam en meley

poo vaaliyin neerai poley
nee sindhinaai endhan meley
naan pookiren panner poo poley

thadumari ponen andrey
unnai paartha neram
adayalam illa ondrai
kanden nenjin oram
yen unnai paarthen endrey
ullam kelvi ketkum
aanalum nenjam andha nerathai

Charanam 1

f: kannadi munne nindrey thaniyaaga naan pesa
yaarenum jannal thaandi paarthaal ayyo
ul pakkam thaazppaal pottum arayinul nee vandhaai
kai neeti thottu paarthen kaatrai ayyo

m: en veetil neeyum vandhu serum kaalam ekkalam
poo maalai seidhey vaaduthey
en methai thedum porvai yaavum selai aagadho
vaaradho annalum indrey haan

Charanam 2

m: en thookam vendum endraai thara matten endraney
kanavennum kalla saavi kondey vandhaai
vaarthaigal thedi thedi naan pesi paartheney
mounathil pesum vithai neethaan thanthaai

f: andradam pogum paadhai yaavum indru maatrangal
kaanamal ponen paadhiyil
nee vandhu ennai meetu selvaai endru ingeye
kaal noga kaal noga nindren

m: naan pogiren meley meley
boolagamey kaalin kezhey
vin meengalin kootam en meley

f: poo vaaliyin neerai poley
nee sindhinaai endhan meley
naan pookiren panner poo poley

m: thadumari ponen andrey
unnai paartha neram
f: adayalam illa ondrai
kanden nenjin oram
m: yen unnai paarthen endrey
ullam kelvi ketkum
f: aanalum nenjam andha nerathai

de reason i love de song is bcos of de singers...
they sing it very clearly....
1 by 1........

love SP Balasubramiam sir n Chitra madam....

Monday, March 22, 2010


itulah prasaan aku sekarang
entah la
nak kata diorg salah pun tak

maklumat yg disampaikan oleh *****
memang tak tepat dan berubah
mengikut moodnya..
maklumlah pensyarah kanan......

trekejar kejar anta assig tadi
tup tup lect kata..
naper antar awal....

panas telinga ngan hati tyme tue...
hampir nak lempang muka sendiri ja

gara gara tue....
terlambat ke kelas..
akhirnya ponteng......

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


terkejut aku tengok paper kosmo ari nie...
16 kos di UNIMAP tak diapprove lagi
alasan yang diberi tak cukup syarat
adakah patut dikatakan begitu
padahal ramai graduan dah pown grad dr universiti tersebut!!!

pelik sangat pelik....
apakah nasib para graduan universiti tersebut?

ramai juga kawan saya yang belajar disitu
bagaimana nasib mereka nanti?
jika tak diapprove lagi kenapa masih operasi lagi
universiti itu...

hish hish
apa la nak jadi ngan KPT...
adakah patut satu satu universiti itu beroperasi
sedangkan 16 kos yang ditawarkan dalam universiti
tersebut belum diapprovekan lagi....

bukankah sesebuah kos yang diperkenalkan di universiti akan mendapat
kelulusan dari KPT sebelum dioperasikan...
kenapa ketika itu LAN tak ikut sekali perkembangan kos tersebut?

ini MENYUSAHKAN hidup pelajar!!!

ini bukan nasib UNIMAP sahaja
tetapi nasib segelintir pelajar UPSI juga
renungkan la!!!!

Monday, March 15, 2010


wat is love actualy?
wat love mean to a gal or a guy?
y shud be in love?

CAN v live witout love?

alot of question will keep on raising
if v talk abt tis topic

it seems love givs alots of trouble to us
but yet v still searching 4 it..

Y Y & Y?


dah lebih dr 6 minggu
tak balik ke kampung halamanku
iaitu Sg Petani,Kedah

mak dan ayah mula merindui kehadiranku
bah kata jiran,
"kalo priya takde , sunyi sungguh lorong kite"
mungkin ini yg menyebabkan mereka merindui ku

walaupun umur ku semakin meningkat setiap tahun
dan tahun ini ku mencecah umur 23 tahun,
namun aku masih seorang bayi bagi mereka

aku pown rindu sangat kat mereka
baru 6 minggu ,tapi rasa macam dah bertahun tahun tak jumpa

harap boleh balik minggu depan...
rindu la...........

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


me in 6th sem nw
means olredy in 3rd year 2nd semester!!!
life so bored n getting very hard to survive!!

i jus hope life can be easy as ABC
life like a coffee....
bitter taste!!!!
need to add sumthing to make it sweet as alwiz...

" Drink hot coffee"
"Drink hot tea"
"Burn your lips"
"And remember me"


lim yin shan
my ever best friend in tis world!!!
jus met her 4 chinese new year
still wit own attitude although goin
to be lawyer nex year....

i miss de tyme which v both loved to spent together in
curry mee shop....
i miss de tyme wer v like to do our revision in smk kj!!!

feel incomplete witout her in upsi!!!!


lama tak update blog!!!
entah la...
nak kata busy pun busy gak la!!
sem nie cpat sangat brlalu ....
berlalu tanpa disedari.........

dalam sem nie banyak yg telah aku melalui secra
langsung dan juga x langsung

banyak aku kluar bersama kawan2
jalan2 penang, genting,setiap minggu kat Kay Hel

sem nie agak bahagia aku........